ready?

It is officially 2 weeks until my due date and everyone wants to know if I'm ready.

I guess it depends on what one means by "ready." The baby room isn't ready. I don't have a hospital bag packed. No diapers. But we finally got an infant car seat 2 weeks ago. 

The answer is yes and no.

I do not want to be pregnant any longer...well...I didn't want to be pregnant 8 months ago either!

But I am not ready for a newborn to exist in my household once again. Sort of freaking out over that one. Especially since this time around I'm dealing with a super duper active 2 year old at the same time.

I have very vivid memories of life with a new baby. Since I thought that baby T would be my only newborn experience I worked extra hard to be present in every moment. So now to think about re-living some of that does not excite me. I believe that you can't ever be fully prepared for life with a baby, but I'm feeling like my prepared-ness pendulum has swung to the other extreme. Still sort of living in denial about this whole new baby business.

So right now it works for me to not give it a lot of thought. I know a baby is coming...and rather soon. Instead of spending too much head space on this right now, I'll work it through once baby is here.

In the meantime I think I'll go get my bag packed...

an old pro...

This is a common conversation with an old acquaintance, stranger, someone who works in the same building as I do, etc.

Person: So when are you due?

Me: April

Person: Is this your first?

Me: No. I have a 2 1/2 year old boy.

Person (referring to labour and delivery): Oh. Then you'll be an old pro!

Me (thinking) ...um...not exactly!

do your baby's hair...

At the beginning of the TV season this fall a number of my fave shows highlighted adoption story lines. One of those shows is Greys Anatomy. I'm not going to get into the story line but basically two of the main characters, Derek and Meredith, adopted a baby girl from Africa. So this is a transracial adoption. It was interesting to me that throughout the whole season never once did the issue of race come up related to this adoption -- even in discussions with the social worker. Until last week.

Here's the best clip.

I love that this is the way that they started the race discussion because it's so true to real life, and an every day issue. We transracial adoptive parents think and ponder the future racial concerns our families will face, but doing the hair well is a daily occurrence.

Now it would be nice if they continued racial discussions and touched on the myriad of other things related to being in a transracial adoption.