babies everywhere

You know how when you decide to buy a certain make and model of car you start seeing that particular car everywhere? Today I saw babies everywhere. I went grocery shopping this afternoon and since it's a holiday here I think everyone was out at the store. I think all the families with newborns decided to go grocery shopping at the same time I did! Everywhere I turned in the store I saw a car seat, stroller, or arms housing an infant. I came home and informed D that I was not going grocery shopping again until I was with a child!

So three days after my post on waiting, and how I'm trying to be really intentional about being okay in the waiting and learning from this time, and how D and I need to enjoy our time left as just the two of us, I crash in the grocery store from the proliferation of babies. I know this is a part of the process, this going back and forth from being okay in the wait to not. But it's a terribly frustrating part. I almost have to keep myself prepared to see pregnant women and families everywhere I go since this is how the world stays populated! It's just frustrating for me to feel strong in the wait and then fall so quickly back into my wants and desires. Intellectually I am strong in this process but my heart is often so weak and just wants to be a mother.

Sigh.

Edited on 12 Nov 08 to add that my reference to purchasing a car is in no way to compare adopting a baby to buying a car. Rather, I was referring to the idea of how when you want something you begin to see it everywhere. And no one called me out on this, I just thought I would make myself clear!